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Sue Boyd was a young, single mother when she met the man she thought was \u201cMr. Right\u201d while attending her father\u2019s church. He, too, was a single parent \u2014 divorced with two children of his own. They had been dating for about a year when she discovered she was pregnant.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cI was so excited, but my boyfriend got angry when I told him. It was not the reaction I expected,” Boyd told Live Action News. “Worse, he told me to \u2018take care of it\u2019 and wrote me a check for a hundred dollars.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

She ripped up the check. Yet her friends encouraged her to get the abortion, telling her it would be \u201cbad\u201d to have two children from different fathers.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cMy friends wanted to know how I would be able to take care of two children,\u201d Boyd said. \u201cI guess I felt I had no choice, so I went to the yellow pages for a doctor\u2019s office that would terminate the pregnancy. At this point, I was about 17 weeks pregnant.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

When Boyd walked into the facility, there were no sidewalk counselors outside; in hindsight, she feels a pro-life presence outside the facility may have made a difference in her decision that day. She had spoken to the child in her womb the day before the abortion, telling the baby how much she wanted her.<\/span><\/p>\n

As the nurse escorted Boyd into the exam room, she cried at the thought of what she was about to do.\u00a0<\/span>\u201cThe nurse patted my shoulder and reassured me that I would be much better off,” Boyd said. “When I woke up after the surgery, she was gone.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

A buried secret and a second abortion<\/strong><\/p>\n

Not long afterward, Boyd was pregnant again. She hadn\u2019t told her parents about the first abortion. Her mom was Catholic and would have strongly disapproved, so she buried her secret where it would remain for 13 years. But once again, Boyd scheduled another abortion. This time, she had the surgery done at the hospital as an outpatient.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cI didn\u2019t know about other pregnancy options,\u201d Boyd said. \u201cI had gone to Planned Parenthood and gotten on birth control, but it obviously didn\u2019t work.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

After the second abortion, Boyd experienced considerable bleeding and pain.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBecause I had a lot of female problems, the doctor decided to do an \u2018exploratory surgery\u2019 to uncover the source of my issues,” Boyd said. “When I woke up, he told me he had removed my uterus in a complete hysterectomy.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Baby parts from the first abortion three years earlier had still been embedded in her womb. Now, she would never give birth to another child aside from her daughter. She was only 27 years old at the time of her hysterectomy.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cI felt like a monster for having two abortions,\u201d Boyd said. \u201cI learned later that it\u2019s not uncommon for women to have multiple abortions.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

She felt like damaged goods, incapable of giving or receiving love after what she\u2019d been through. She engaged in casual sex and abused drugs and alcohol.<\/span><\/p>\n

Boyd said, \u201cI couldn\u2019t let anyone into my heart, I was such a mess. I hated myself and thought everyone else did as well.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Confession and realization<\/b><\/p>\n

She relocated to the Midwest to take a job, hoping for her older daughter to grow up in the country.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

At church, she enrolled in Dr. Neil Anderson\u2019s \u201cThe Steps to Freedom in Christ\u201d discipleship counseling class. While walking out of church one day, she blurted out to one of the girls in her class that she had had two abortions.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cI immediately wished I hadn\u2019t said that. I was in such a panic,\u201d Boyd said. \u201cBut I learned she also had abortions and miscarriages. We became good friends. It was the first time I let out my secret.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Boyd said that one night, she felt God told her to \u201cgoogle\u201d the word \u201cabortion.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Boyd said, \u201cI had never really talked about my abortions and felt I would go to my grave with my shame. But when I started reading everything about abortion, my soul wept. Everything I had been told \u2014 \u2018my body, my choice\u2019 \u2014 and that it was \u2018just tissue\u2019 had been lies I\u2019d believed.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

The emotional pain she had been grappling with, she realized, was directly linked to her abortions.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cMy heart was broken,\u201d Boyd said. \u201cI was mad, too. About the abortions and with the doctor who took my womb.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Boyd believes that God told her that both her babies had been girls. She decided to name them Rachael and Rebecca. She was finally at a turning point.<\/span><\/p>\n

Finding true healing… and a calling<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u201cI was going through a divorce when a friend introduced me to a pastor at a Christian Reformed Church who told me Jesus loved me,” Boyd said. “I had tried to kill myself nine times. I didn\u2019t really want to die, I just wanted the pain to go away.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

She started seeing a Christian psychiatrist and worked with her pastor to overcome her past and put the shame and guilt behind her.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cI was in therapy for about 33 years, and hospitalized at a mental facility thirteen times,\u201d Boyd said.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

But she realized that all along God had been working in her life, cradling her during the worst of times.<\/span><\/p>\n

Boyd said, \u201cHe was literally putting me together again. I got two dogs that helped me heal and they were a gift from God.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

From 2000 until 2005, she led an abortion recovery Bible study in her home. Fourteen years later, she attended a Rachel\u2019s Vineyard weekend retreat to heal the wounds inflicted by her abortions. She was ready for where God would direct her next.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cI got active with Silent No More and remarried,\u201d Boyd said. \u201cThen, I got a phone call from the 40 Days for Life campaign, asking me if I\u2019d be interested in leading the fall 2023 campaign.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

She enrolled in training and went to Ann Arbor to share her story there at a 40 Days for Life vigil.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cIt was heartbreaking to seeing families go into Planned Parenthood, pushing strollers with toddlers,\u201d she said.<\/span><\/p>\n

Due to back surgery, she was inactive during the 2024 campaigns but plans to return in 2025 as a co-leader.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cGod has done so much in my life,\u201d Boyd said. \u201cHe has given me forgiveness, healed my body and set me free from my addiction to drugs and alcohol. I don\u2019t sugarcoat my anything about my past. I want the truth to be told \u2014 that we are all created in His image for His purposes.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Tell President Trump, RFK, Jr., Elon, and Vivek: <\/i><\/b><\/a><\/span><\/p>\n

Stop killing America\u2019s future. Defund Planned Parenthood NOW!<\/i><\/b><\/a><\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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