{"id":199834,"date":"2019-04-08T23:07:28","date_gmt":"2019-04-09T04:07:28","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.liveaction.org\/news\/?p=199834"},"modified":"2019-04-09T13:20:47","modified_gmt":"2019-04-09T18:20:47","slug":"woman-regrets-abortion-screaming-keep-baby","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/archive.liveaction.org\/news\/woman-regrets-abortion-screaming-keep-baby\/","title":{"rendered":"Woman regrets abortion: ‘I was screaming inside for someone to tell me… keep the baby’"},"content":{"rendered":"
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With the success of the movie “Unplanned,” a Massachusetts women is speaking out about her abortion experience, and the effect it had on her. Corinne Kimball wrote her story on Facebook<\/a> of how she went to Planned Parenthood after experiencing an unplanned pregnancy.<\/p>\n

“Growing up in a Catholic home, abortion wasn\u2019t talked about,” she began. “I mean why would it be? I was supposed to be pure until marriage, duh. I was pro-life, so for years I kept my opinion about abortion to myself because I knew I WOULD NEVER do such a thing.” She said Planned Parenthood<\/a> was her “best friend,” and that she was taking Plan B pills “like candy.” When she turned 22, she had just been offered her dream job, and was preparing to move. It was then that she realized she might be pregnant. She called her ex-boyfriend right away.<\/p>\n

“I told him before taking the test, ‘I\u2019m letting you know now before I even take this, I AM NOT GETTING AN ABORTION. So if I\u2019m pregnant, we are having this baby,'” she recounted. “He wasn\u2019t concerned and honestly was all for the baby. I came out of the bathroom and I was indeed, pregnant.” Terrified, she knew she had to tell her parents. “I felt I not only let myself down, but my entire family down, too,” she said. “Which is sad to look back on. My entire life leading up to this point, I was so career oriented. To have this new gig taken from me was something I wasn\u2019t ready for. Though my parents were supportive with my pregnancy, I knew at 22 I was ultimately making the decision. The question I ask myself now is: Why was my career more important than a baby\u2019s life? Looking back, it wasn\u2019t.”<\/p>\n

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She decided she would have an abortion<\/a>, and traveled to Boston for the procedure. Outside the facility, she said people were vicious, “like dogs ready to battle.” An escort helped her into the facility, keeping her from seeing the gruesome pictures of dead babies. Inside, however, the Planned Parenthood staff seemed kind and reassuring. The counselor, she said, was “gentle” and “very warm,” and explained her choices. “I could keep the baby, adopt, have a medical abortion, or surgical abortion,” she remembered. “I have all these choices, which sounds relieving and empowering, but at the same time\u2026 it was a lot to put on my shoulders.”<\/p>\n

While Kimball said she was given lots of options, she also admitted that the counselor really only gave her one choice: abortion. “The woman was full of information about the abortion process but didn\u2019t get into great detail about choosing adoption or keeping my baby,” she said.<\/p>\n

In my mind, Planned Parenthood was a place for women to feel safe and get help without judgement\u2014and it IS. That\u2019s if you want to get an STD check, pregnancy test, or abortion. What about adoption? What if I wanted help to keep the baby? Not once did I get the feeling that if I had the baby, I would be helped or counseled, because if I did\u2026 I wouldn\u2019t have gone through with the abortion. I was a privileged white girl, living in suburbia, with money and supportive parents\u2014I could support this baby. I was screaming inside for someone to tell me it\u2019s okay, go home, keep the baby, you got this. I never got that.<\/em><\/p>\n

Her appointment was set for eight weeks, and though she felt guilty, she was intent on going through with the abortion. When it was her turn to go back, she said her mind felt “foggy” and her soul felt “empty.”<\/p>\n

“I laid down on the surgical bed with an IV inserted, and the nurse asked if this was my first time,” she said. “I thought to myself, First time? People have more than one? before saying, ‘Yes, yes\u2026 this is my first time. I\u2019m very nervous.’ I could hardly get the words out because I was trying to swallow back my puke. ‘You\u2019ll be fine, this medicine will calm you down. The doctor will be gentle and this will all be over within minutes.'” Kimball said she didn’t know what was put into her IV, but it helped her forget what was about to happen, and that suddenly, she was on “cloud nine.”<\/p>\n

“The doctor came in, and I don\u2019t remember him saying anything to me \u2014 I was drugged up at this point, floating in my own sky of clouds,” she said, continuing, “The suction is what woke me up from cloud 9. He sucked up my baby. It was over.” Afterwards, she was taken to a recovery room, which she said she would remember forever. “Girls ranging from 15 to their late 30s were all lying down in their beds. Some with smiles of relief, others crying, and others staring at the wall. We all just had abortions,” Kimball recalled. “Leaving 15 minutes later, I was a free woman. It was my right. I chose. How I felt later, though, wasn\u2019t my choice.”<\/p>\n