{"id":173725,"date":"2017-10-26T13:00:36","date_gmt":"2017-10-26T17:00:36","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.liveaction.org\/news\/?p=173725"},"modified":"2017-10-25T12:15:30","modified_gmt":"2017-10-25T16:15:30","slug":"after-six-abortions-she-was-filled-with-remorse-and-regret-until-she-found-god","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/archive.liveaction.org\/news\/after-six-abortions-she-was-filled-with-remorse-and-regret-until-she-found-god\/","title":{"rendered":"After six abortions she was filled with heartache and regret, until she found forgiveness"},"content":{"rendered":"
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My name is Margarita. I am 26 years old and was brought up in a non-Christian, single-parent home with a mother who worked full-time to provide for me. As a result, we rarely talked or bonded. At the young age of 14, I fell into the wrong group of people. They were promiscuous, doing drugs, and living wild without consequences.\u00a0 The importance of purity and the wisdom to walk away was not imparted to me by my mother, so I simply followed their lead. This led to many nights stranded at strangers’ houses, hungover, and constantly in the company of guys of all ages.<\/p>\n

By the end of the 8th-grade I was pregnant but actually didn\u2019t know it until about halfway through the pregnancy. This extreme and debilitating stomach sickness showed up randomly at the end of my 8th-grade year and would not let up. For weeks I could not eat or drink; instead, I would lay in bed crying and exhausted. I finally went to the doctor who deemed it to be a stomach virus that would eventually pass. I suffered for two months, but by the time my freshman year began, the sickness finally lifted.<\/p>\n

I was your average freshman. Life was normal again, until one evening I felt movement in my stomach. Being young and immature, I actually had no clue what it was. I didn\u2019t realize it at the time, but God led me to First Choice Pregnancy Center, who provided me with a free pregnancy test. Little did I know when I walked through the doors of First Choice Pregnancy Services in Las Vegas, I would be met by multiple Christian women. I received a positive pregnancy test that day, at age 15;\u00a0 but more than that I experienced compassion, hope, and encouragement. They didn\u2019t try to convert me to Christianity like people who support abortion say these centers do, but they did show me Christ\u2019s love. Natalie, the woman who counseled me, became a friend and a teacher that day; one that God used to speak life into me.<\/p>\n

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I went home informed and encouraged to embrace motherhood. When my mom found out I was pregnant shortly after my visit to the crisis pregnancy center, abortion and adoption were her first responses. I stuck firmly to my decision to choose life.\u00a0 God helped soften her heart to me keeping the baby. The doctor appointment soon after this confirmed I was already five months along and having a boy. I gave birth to a healthy baby boy on January 19, 2006.<\/p>\n

I truly wish I could say motherhood was a cure to my brokenness and my insecurities, but it wasn\u2019t. I had become hungry for, and addicted to, affection and attention. Becoming a mother only slowed me down for a little while.<\/p>\n

It wasn\u2019t long after my son was born that I fell back into my old ways. Promiscuity led me to find myself pregnant a second time. Hyperemesis Gravidarum showed up in full force, but it wasn’t well known and was often misunderstood. It sometimes still is. I was incapable of caring for myself or my baby and there was no hiding the pregnancy.<\/p>\n

My mom didn\u2019t give me an option this time. She told me I had to have an abortion, and this time there was no fight in me. I complied and was led into a deadly cycle of “relief” by abortion. I went on to have two more abortions not too long after this, a total of three between ages 16 and 18.<\/p>\n

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